Shazam motherfucker!

Sometimes being so seemingly self aware is a little tiresome, especially during the upside down roller coasters where - OH SHIT MY SHOULDER SAFETY PADS JUST FLEW OFF - sometimes occurs.
I had one of those nights where I'm reminded of busy busy busy and am seemingly overwhelmed by the strangest sensation that I may actually be partially bending the universe to my will on some kind of subtle plain of existence. Of course to be fair I'm an agnostic that more leans towards atheism and a grand appreciation of the universe and the obvious vastness of the unknowns that make up its parts.
That being said sometimes these crazy meat sacks in our skulls make the perception of existence the craziest thing!
All in all whatever happens on a romantic level will happen, there's no point in getting annoyed or wasting energy on people that obviously don't hold any kind of mutual feelings. I don't think you should even have to feel like you have to devote energy to a person, it should happen naturally and never seem like a burden.
I don't think I've ever really been in love before but I'm not so sure if becoming a Captain Hook (dustin hoffman ocourse) will be the most enriching life. I'm basically the last descendant of two family's so, shit, I might as well do my best to make those who came before me roll around in their graves from all the ruckus I stir up.